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Sunday, April 7, 2002 | 10:24 p.m. Ugh, uber-yawn. I'll probably head to bed in a bit. I mean, it's Sunday night, so Adult Swim will be on at least, right? It's rainy outside, I like it. I like the rain, it's cleansing. Makes you feel all refreshed, like some types of pasta. Spicy, yet.. clearing. Anywho, I'm hoping that Dan will be up to doing a little bit of something tomarrow. I really don't want to have to clean my room. Another day of hangin' around here will drive me crazy enough to do it. My fish are doing pretty well. The tinier one has got this wierd white thing on his tail, I'm not sure if it's a breeding thing or that 'Ich' disease fish get. The other fish doesn't have a bit on it, so I'm hoping the tiny one's just horny. >.< Anywhodidly, I'm going to lay down and watch some TV now. G'night! Saturday, April 6, 2002 | 09:41 p.m. But he'd better be ready when I pick him up tomarrow, or that smile will turn to a -.- GOT IT? <3<3<3 Other than that, I actually submitted for some online clique thing today. Geek are I. I'm super sleepy. I think I'mma lay down and watch South Park until MAD TV comes on. Sometimes you're in the mood for humor, ne? G'night. Friday, April 5, 2002 | 10:35 a.m. 1. What are the first things that you do in the morning to start your day? On school days I get up, and grab a shower right away. After my shower I get dressed, and make sure I've got everything I need ready to go. I'll than feed the fish, and make sure the cat has water. Once done with that I'll run out to the kitchen, grab a Nutri-Grain bar or something for breakfast and some pop or Powerade for the day. When I'm sure I've got everything together I head out to the car, and drive to school. 2. What are the last things that you do at night before going to bed? I'll check my mail, than shut off the computer and close the curtains. I'll feed the fish, than lie down and watch a little TV before getting to sleep. 3. What daily routine have you recently added to your day? Feeding the fish, and giving the cat her pill. 4. What routine do you wish you get rid of? Cleaning up the cat's messes when she doesn't go in her box. That's what the pills are for though, and we're working actively to make sure this will end soon. 5. What's the one thing that makes you feel like something is missing if you don't do it some point within your day? Other than missing a shower because I'm late, not too much. Being late for one part of my day (not waking up on time, car trouble) will completely throw me off. Thus ends my first ever Friday Five. ^_^ Thursday, April 4, 2002 | 10:25 p.m. Soooo.. I'm thinkin.. that .. I'm freaking tired. I think I'll go and try to sleep. Thursday, April 5, 2001 | 05:32 p.m. Let's see... made a new layout for Josh and for Mallory. Envy my l33t webpage skills. ^_^ I've gotten pretty positive feedback for this layout. The kids at Suteki say that it's scary. No no no, the chick on Nicole's (see Suteki Links, bottom right) blog is way scarier than my teddy bear. Teddy's just peirced, is all. ^_^ I'm still having trouble sleeping. I can't explain it. I wake up at the oddest hours in the morning, and I can't fall asleep until late at night. Danno thinks it might have something to do with my 'menstrual situation.' Yea, I'm thinking my period's being nice and cruel at the same f-ing time. Oh well. I'd rather have irregular sleeping patterns than painful cramps and headaches. I haven't seen Covin online in a few days.. I hope he's alright after his run-in. Anyfreakinwho. I think I'm gonna play with Liz's chinchilla's and than I'll come back and be like a l0zer and surf Suteki and the net some more. Wednesday, April 3, 2002 | 02:42 p.m. Tuesday, April 2, 2002 | 10:31 p.m. I'm currently sick, snot snot snot. I'm also thankful that my uterus has been kind enough not to cramp so much. Maybe that's just the Tylenol Cold talking. It makes me loopy. I got new pants! And fishes! I got 2 new pairs of pants. One of them laces up with like, cord of some kind, up the sides. They are my dream pants. ^_^ My fishes are so awesome! My grandma bought me 2 Black Moor Goldfish. The bigger one I named Hannibal, because he was constantly nipping at my hand on the way home, and the little one I named Clarice. She's got bulgy-er eyes and they're golder than Hannibal's. They both have sexy-boob eyes. Anywho, things have been so super great lately! Dan and I are so wonderful and the world is spinning just fine! I'm planning on taking my cat in to get her rabies and other shots and to get her checked up so we can get her liscensed. Yum-yum. After that I plan on getting some laundry done at Dan's house. I neeeed to do laundry like a bi-atch. Tag-tag! Tuesday, March 26, 2002 | 07:51 p.m. Why do we hold ourselves back from expressing what we feel? Why do we go and judge people on the sides of them we see? Because it's the side of them they present to the world. Some of us choose to keep these true selves locked away inside. Some turn the key thinking that it will offer some type of cover-my-ass protection. No one knows them, no one can ever get to them. Others.. may not feel the need to expose themeselves to the cruelty of others. Let them see the 'acceptable' parts of you. The parts of you that make you a social figure, that people will most likely recognize you by. Alone can be a sanctuary to some. To me, alone is scary. Alone is a shakey feeling that starts in the balls of my feet and crawls it's way up to my hips. I don't like alone. I don't mind alone with a person, or a few people. I'm weak, in that I am shakey alone. I'm strong, I can accept the fact that I need other people around me to survive. While I find it hard to accept the 'whys' and shit of smoking.. anything. I suppose that there's never much I can do about it. It does effect the way I look at someone, as I see the negative effects of it. I was brought up to see those things as 'wrong' and well.. I am me. I know there's that true side to everyone, I'll never cast that idea aside. Any sort of.. un-truth ends up eating me away. I can't lie, I get ate up in my grief. Honesty is something I need, both from myself and from others. Sometimes I protect things, and I don't say things, because I can't simply speak up. Weakness? I think I'm coming to terms with a few things in my life right now. I think that I'm more of a watcher than I do-er. I'm a very motivated person, but I like to sit. I like to watch. I like to sit and think and do absolutely nothing and watch the world spin. It's a beautiful thing, the world spinning. People's lives spinning, blurring, blending. Falling like stars and rising like phoenix. Crawling through the flesh and running over the skin. The world's a beautiful, ugly, fast, breathing.. awesome place. I'm happy to be here. Well, I suppose I need someone else to start before I'll get going as well, when it comes to expressing these ideas swimming like fighting fish through my mind. Thank you. Tuesday, March 26, 2002 | 08:27 a.m. Things aren't the most wonderful. They could be better. I'm trying very hard to keep a positive outlook and keep my faith in yellow-orange underthings. But it's hard. Speaking of underwear, I want to go shopping. I need some new jeans, some new everything. My stuff is getting rapidly delpleted through repeated and very stressful wear. I use my pants as my canvas when my brush needs to be wiped off, a rag when my hands get dirty (and if it's got anything to do with art or cooking than watch out.), and many more a thing. Let's create a dream-list of things! I'm horribly bored, and there's still a good 30 minutes left in class. |
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