Saturday, June 1, 2002 | 02:21 p.m.
So here I am, contemplating going to Josh's party or not. I'm really not feeling that well. Kinda sickish. But oh the fuck well. Things are kinda annoying right now anyway.

I found links to a buncha my friend's journals, I'm puttin' 'em over there. For my personal use, at the very least.

My stomach's rollin' on without me, and I'm bored.

< / whine >

Later.

Saturday, June 1, 2002 | 09:56 a.m.

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(AHAHAHAHAHA! I'm "Mandy Moore sweet"!)

This was a quiz post because I'll be archiving soon.

Saturday, June 1, 2002 | 01:01 a.m.
It's early.

Maryam is playing FFX behind me, she spending the night. We took Ben home a little while ago, around 11:30pm. Dad didn't seem to mind. We all played DDR and took turns on the computer. It was fun. Swimming was pretty fun too. We made fun of crappy Heather and Ben and James talked about North's football team.

Supposedly I'm to blame for Dan and I not going to Levi's BBQ today. Oh well.

I got in from swimming and Tom had IMed me saying "god damnit" "i want to go swimming" ^_^ Oh yes, it will be a party.

Oh, Jim fixed the rope, if that's not already obvious.

Jammer wants to lay on my arm, so I'm gonna crash now.

G'night.

Friday, May 31, 2002 | 03:24 p.m.

Need I say more? This whale decided he needed to jump onto the fucking rope that divided the two areas (shallow & deep) in the pool. Everyone is told that if that rope breaks there is a 99% chance that there will be no more pool for the rest of the summer. Could this fat man help himself? Noooo..

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Friday, May 31, 2002 | 11:12 a.m.
School's out, yippee yay and stuff. What this means:

! I'll be getting a job soon.
! I'll be switching azhben to it's new domain at enigmatical.net
! I'll have more time, and possibly more interesting things, to enter shiz here.

In other words, Erika's new layout is awesome. My brother says it looks like a watermelon. ^_^ I'm sure he didn't mean it in an insulting way, and in all honesty, that probably helps with the summery theme of it.

All my animals are living and doing well, and my family is the same.

My brother and sister and her friend are over right now. James is playing Ace Combat 4 on the PS2 right behind me and I have no idea where Heather and her friend went. They were running around somewhere in their pajamas earlier. I yelled at them, because with as little as Heather wears to sleep, she need not be running around outside. My sister and I DON'T get along very well. She's very stuck up and tries to be smart-assed but is too young to pull it off at all.

One of our friends is having a BBQ today, Dan was invited to go, and I think that he should. Not only will he get the A+ Certification book he's been wanting to borrow, but it'll be good for him to get out. I know he enjoys being anti-social, and 9/10 of the time I can't blame him. But with recent happenings and stuff, I think that it'd be good for him to get out and make friends who he can lean on when I don't make the cut.

Saturday, or tomarrow, is Josh's Graduation Party. I'm planning on going, unless a big deal is made of it. Josh has been a good friend of mine since 9th grade, and he's going off to college very soon, which means I probably won't be seeing him that often.

I've been getting a lot of mail from here lately. I'd like to know more about the city and the college itself. If you know anything, please contact me. Thanks.

In other words, there's not much else to say today. I think I'll spend it finishing my new layout and uploading it to enigmatical and than, upon completion, decide what do to here. Perhaps I'll use it for the news section of my site. Maybe.

Later!

Wednesday, May 29, 2002 | 06:28 p.m.
1. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others?: eyes. o_o
2. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?: if she had a good platform and stuff.
3. Would you marry for money?: probably not.
4. Have you had braces?: I probably should have, but no.
5. Do you pluck your eyebrows?: yes
6. Do you ever cut or hurt yourself?: once, before i moved in with my dad.
7. When was the last time you had a hickey?: luckily, i've been spared that embarassment.
8. Could you live without a computer?: it'd be boring-er, but i'd probably be more social.
9. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc?: AIM.
10. If so, how many people are on your list(s)?: uhm.. people from suteki, dan, friends, homies.. lots. but there are multiple s/ns per person so i really couldn't tell you.
11. If you could live in any past time period, which would it be?: Probably the 70's. Not sure, when it comes down to it, I'd rather be here.
12. Do you drink enough water?: nope
13. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: depends on stuff. mostly off.
14. What is your favorite fruit?: cherry
15. Do you eat wheat bread or white?: which ever's around.
16. What is your favorite place to visit?: Uhm.. one day i'd like to go to hawaii.
17. What is the last movie you saw?: theatres? spiderman.
18. Do you kiss on the first date?: my last first date was 3 years ago. i don't think i would though. i dunno.
19. Are you photogenic?: Sometimes. But mostly no, due to skin disordery thing.. [i know, more than you wanted to know.]
20. Do you dream in color or black and white?: I don't recall ever dreaming in black and white.
21. Are you wearing fingernail polish?: no. phooey.
23. Do you have any dimples?: I don't think so?
24. Do you remember being born?: no... ew.
25. Favorite childhood memory?: playing in the back yard.
26. Do you drink alcohol? no. goody-two-shoes don't causually drink. i've only had alcohol 3 times in my life.
27. Did you like or do you not like high school?I like it, but there are some aspects I hate. Like some of the people.
28. What is the most beautiful language?: all. especially the older european ones.
29. When you are asleep do you like being kissed awake?: yes
30. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?: sunset, and i'd like to actually sit and watch one one day.
32. Why do you take surveys?: because everyone learns 'bout me!
33. Do you like salty food or sugary food the most?: salty
34. Is a flat stomach important to you?: not too curvy, not too flat..
35. Do you or have you played with a ouija board?: kinda
36. Are you loyal?: to a fault, but always inside.
37. Are you tolerant of other people's beliefs?: except when it comes to extremes.
38. When you watch movies at home, do you like the light on or off?: off. some light good.
39. Do you believe in magic?: yes.
40. Do you have nightmares frequently?: goodness, kinda, but about the STUPIDEST things.
41. Do you like your nose?: do you?
42. Do you like abstract art?: yes.
43. Do you think you can draw well?: I try not to suck.
44. Do you listen to music daily?: holy f yea.
45. Do you like to watch cartoons?: hecks yea
46. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real?: who knows.
47. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet?: 3
48. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you like a variety?: either tennis shoes or my old sandals.
49. Do you write poetry?: no, i kinda suck.
50. Do you snore?: no
51. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides?: mostly sides or back.
52. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?: poodles. <3 small doggies.
53. Do you lick stamps? i don't often use snail mail
54. Do you use an electric can opener?: it's dirty
55. Have you ridden in a hot air balloon?: nope
56. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?: depends on the situation
57. Do you think balding men should shave their heads?: naw
58. Do you know anyone who is clinically depressed?: yes.
59. Do you prefer a piano or a violin?: piano
60. Are you a sex addict?: hardly
61. Do you crack your knuckles?: yes.
63. Do you hunt?: my dad used to.
64. Do you like fast food joints, or expensive restaurants?: both!
65. Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?: zoo
66. Do you have a middle name? What is it?: yes, lynne
67. Are you basically a happy person?: pretty much
6 8. Are you tired?: hell yea, it's like 1 am.
69. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today?: hella yes.
70. Have you ever met anyone off the internet?: not in person, no
71. How many phones do you have in your house?: 3
72. How long is your hair?: short-short
73. Do you get along with your parents?: my father, yes.
74. What color of eyes do you prefer?: deep, colorful ones.
75. Are you a virgin? o_< thats none of your business.
76. What medications do you take? none, currently.
77. What does your bedroom look like? beige carpet, white walls, hippee beads and posters and some party lights on them. computer table in the corner, blocking out part of the window. old bedsheets act as curtains. it's cute, but messy. i'll draw a layout of it later and post it.

Tuesday, May 28, 2002 | 09:32 p.m.
holy shit. I could rant in support of Covin, but whenever I tend to do those sort of rants they're long-winded and full of stuff no one understands.

In conclusion, people are fucking stupid.

Sunday, May 26, 2002 | 03:20 p.m.
Virtual shopping!

Since I missed out with Maryam due to a headache.

these are the most cutest ever. I want some. these too. they didn't have these when I went yesterday. I want that that's the sweetest blink shirt I've ever seen. gimme a billion of these.

I sent in an electronic application to Spencers. I'd really like to get hired there.

Friday, May 24, 2002 | 07:48 a.m.
I'm at school. I'm so tired I could fall asleep. I'm not gonna though, because it's a B-day and I like B-days. They're fun. I'm still trying to find new ideas for a layout.

For some reason WS_FTP is installed on this computer. I could upload stuff from here. ^_^

My dad leaves today for Topeka. I'm gonna miss him, it's the first time he's gone somewhere since I moved in with him. He's a little nervous about it too. 'Well, I kinda feel bad about going.' Was the most repeated phrase last night. I left him a little note telling him to have tons of fun! ^_^ He'll get to see John Force, his uberfavorite drag racer. Last night he was going through his closet trying to find the perfect poster for Mr. Force to sign.

I'm thinking of getting my hair cut this weekend. Not going to an expensive place again, just a reguar 10$ haircut. Want it more punky. Less.. shaggy.

My english teacher once said that statistics show that when students choose their own groups they don't do better presentations. I have hence concluded that she knows nothing. Just thought I'd mention that.

Surfing deviant. this is cute!

End time: 8:58 AM. Boy.. this was a productive post. ~_^

Thursday, May 23, 2002 | 05:49 p.m.
Okayandso. I had made a huge-ass entry and than a link opened in the window so... it's gone. Damnit.

I updated the links over there. ->

In other news, nothings been happening. School is being a major pain in my butt, but it'll be over soon. I <3 three day weekends. So beautiful.

In other words, I'm working on a new layout for my new site. I'm hoping to get the 'OK' to move in soon. ^_^

What else? I miss my senior friends. School just isn't the same without them. Except for the annoying underclassmen part. They suck.

I need to get a job. Damn jobs.

Dan's sister seems depressed. I'm not sure I'm one to talk to her, considering we have both been pretty quick to jump on each other. I just don't understand why she makes such a big deal out of what should be simple things. Oh well, they say a person grows up the most between their freshman and sophmore year. I just wish she'd realize that life isn't that bad and that it's way easier than she makes it out to be. Don't be a drama-queen like other people, Liz-hon. Enjoy whatchu got.

I'm going to go and buy an algae eater for my tank tonight. There's algae growing on the sides of the tank, and when it comes between the two of them, I can't stand slimey snails. But if the people at the pet store say that my angel fish will kill an algae eater, than I'll get a snail. Unless of course, he eats them too. >.<

My mice have gotten bigger, which is nice. They nibble at my fingers when they're pissed at me. I need to train them to like me better. YOU MUST LOVE ME. It's cute when they fight over cornflakes, or when Dot humps Frenzy. Darn lesbian mice. I can never have normal pets.

That's about it, for now. Later.

Tuesday, May 21, 2002 | 10:37 p.m.
Ugh. I have so much cleaning to do around my room. The carpet is absolutely crap. Me using it as a paint-rag doesn't help, I suppose. I cleaned out the mouse cage (Dot spazzed out.) and the fish tank. Mr. Stripes (I re-named him.) is getting pretty big, so keeping the water level up is important. My dad gave me some money to go and get an algae eater for the fish tank, because there's algae growing all over the place. I'm hoping it's algae. It's brown, and somtimes it's green. I'll ask the ladies there what I should do. I have a carbon filter in the tank, that's supposed to get rid of ammonia and such. I figure if I have extra money tomarrow I'll get a new filter, as it's almost time for it to be changed again.

I made a little climbing rope for the mice. I braided together a bunch of braids (to make it thick) and than hung it from the top of the cage. For some reason, Frenzy loves the damn thing. She climbed to the top, and of course Jammer (cat) was up there watching. They touched noses (kinda, there was a screen between them) and than Frenzy just turned around and crawled back down. Fearless, those lesbian mice. ^_^

I'm super tired, so I'm going to crash. I've got so much History homework to do I think I'm going to go CRAZY.

I can't wait until school's over and I have time to work for money and do things that.. aren't school. Like paint and design webbies and stuff. And get more pets.

Good night!

Monday, May 20, 2002 | 10:21 p.m.
Well, whether you like it or not, I've finally been accepted as a hostee!!! Super yay! While I do have my heart set on buying my own domain, once I get the money, this will more than do for now!

She is pretty darn awesome for hosting me. I plan on working out a new layouty thing. It'll be awesome to have everything in once place. It will most definately change the way things are presented in my site in general. For the better, of course.

Now, none of the important things will change. Same old Jen, same old values, save old Azhben. This sites over a year old now, (GO ME!) so it deserves a little present, don't you think?!

Well, I've got to feed my fish and than I'm off to watch TV in bed. Adiosmosis!

Monday, May 20, 2002 | 08:59 a.m.
That darn clique script moved my tables over. Jordan's too. If anyone has ANY help they can give me I would most definately appreciate it. :points to e-mail link:

What else is going on? Nothing too much. I should do my hair or something. Damn the boringness.

Saturday, May 18, 2002 | 07:18 p.m.
LOOKIT MY 1334 SKILLS IN ACTION ONCE MORE

Made a new layout for Jordan. Glad he likes it. That Blogger script can be a pain in my ass to get used to.

In other news, I've been having super strange dreams lately. It's like.. weird. But I keep them to myself because I'm not sure if I'm remembering them correctly.

I had the worst headache last night, and went to nap around 7ish. I ended up sleeping until around 10-ish [pm] when my Dad came home and was surfing the net. Than I woke up again around 12, than around 6 am. Than I decided to get up when I woke up 'round 10 am. It was about time.

I don't really like this layout. Maybe I'll start working on another one. This is cute and all, but.. meh. It's not a pierced teddy bear, that's for sure.

I'll post pictures from the art show I went to later.

Friday, May 17, 2002 | 02:15 p.m.
Friday Five again...

1. What shampoo do you use?
Uhm.. Suave Daily Protection.

2. Do you use conditioner? What kind?
Yes, and some other Suave product. It's what my dad buys.

3. When was the last time you got your hair cut?
Just a week or so ago. Super short.

4. What styling products do you use?
Well, now I use this stuff called Hair Play, which is some sort of styling gel.

5. What's your worst hair-related experience?
I haven't really had one.

Friday, May 17, 2002 | 01:19 p.m.
Blah blah blah. I'm tearing my hair out looking for a mouse for Dan. I dunno what I did to my old one. Oh, I mean computer mice. Sorry. Jumped right in without ya, ne?

I'm supposed to paint the monitor to Dan's computer made of scraps. I'm hoping to make it kick ass.

My dad's going out of town Friday - Sunday next week. My grandma's freaking out because she wants me to stay with her over that entire period of time. I was like "NOOOOOOO!" Luckily my dad realizes that I have a fish, two mice, and a cat that all have to be looked over anyway. He said that he's not even worried about me. I <3 my papa-san.

The Mr. T Experience - You're The Only One
Download it!

I'm staying home from school today (obviously). It'd just be boring for me anyway. Trust me.

I had to help my dad lift the hood to his Chevelle ('69 Malibu) on to the top of his Jimmy('84 GMC). It was heavy, but we got it out and up! I can't wait to see it when it's all put together.

I'd like to find whatever people are using to turn their winamp playlists in to text. I'mma go look. Later!

Thursday, May 16, 2002 | 04:58 p.m.
Lessee.. not too much going on. Dan's building a computer next to me. Radio's on. Talking to Mallory. Bein' hungry as fart.

Tomarrow is Vikings of Distinction day. I really don't want to go to school. If Dan has to go than I'll go, but otherwise school is amazingly stupid. And can bite me.

School isn't stupid, however, tonight. At 7pm they're having an Honor's Night and an artist thing for graduating seniors. I was invited to go, and I'd like to, but.. some people think it's too late. It stays pretty bright around here until about 8:30ish... I'm sure I'll be fine. I'd really like to go and see everything set up, as most of my senior friends are involved in art and it means a lot to them to have people & friends see their art for one of the last times in highschool.

Josh should be there. I was helping him set up his booth today in Art. One of his lights mysteriously stopped working, which majorly sucks. I hope he found a bulb or something. I hate the chick who's set up in front of him. She's a major biatch.

I'm counting on going, and Josh used up one of his tickets to get me to go. So I'll probably bring my digital camera so I can take pictures of all the awesome art. Mr. Cooper was watching me like, feed off the energy of everyone, and he's like, "You should come tonight. You'll get to do this next year, you know." ^_^ My booth will be hella full. Because I rock, and I'll be working my ass off for the art department next year.

I've just got to find something that isn't a pair of jeans to wear to this thing... I think I've got a pair of something somewhere to wear.

Later!

Wednesday, May 15, 2002 | 04:15 p.m.

Who's Your Inner Buffy Bad-Girl? Find out @ She's Crafty

Psychics don't need to like.. remember things, right?

Took a buncha other quizes. (It's now like 5:30pm)

I'm a Natural Beauty, if I were in a horror movie I'd be Barely Breathing. I'm a Lame Liar, I Nibble on my ice cream. I'm Gina from Empire Records, Miranda from Sex in the City, Willow from Buffy. If I were a super hero I'd be Charlie's Angels (>_<). I'm Danielle from My So-Called Life, Brian the Brain from Breakfast Club, and freaking Janet Jackson. I hate her. I redid the quiz like 1684615164 times and it's all I got. I'm not a ho. I'd be Acid Burn (Kate Libby) from Hackers. And my Sexual MO is a sensualist.

Ya know, I could live on french fries. I <3 french fries. I'm gonna search for a french fry clique online. My friend Jordan and I are starting an 'Anti-Neopets' clique. Because we're mean and evil and we like excersing our 1st Ammendments. Yea.

I should probably make Jordan a new layout as well.. because for some dumbass reason his images aren't showing up. Probably some fault of mine, but I'll fix it. I think I need to make a cox account just so I can put every image I'm hosting on it. I'm currently using my 'spree' account, but I'd hate to push it with all the images I keep posting / hosting. I'm always worried about those sort of things. Don't want anyone to hate me because my 500MB of bandwith got soaked up so quickly. Or is this all just big talk because you all know that no one visits this site enough to use all 500MBs of the free-ness.

Today was sucky for the first parts of the day. Sometimes it sucks. Everything was like driving a fluffy pink bunny car over mountain high boulders. Damn you bunny car. Damn you boulders.

I haven't posted because I've been uber tired and busy. Last night Dad kept us out until 11:30PM. We were at his friend Neil's house. Neil's pretty damn cool. He's got a kick butt car. And he's got a kick butt neighborhood. I think Dad should buy the house for sale at the end of the block in that neighborhood. Because a house would be nice.

Sometimes I'm so glad to be a senior. Yea.

I'm gonna eat spaghetti now. Bai.

Monday, May 13, 2002 | 07:14 p.m.
xSezzyx: Didja get 123004823841 questions?
Thatoneguy6834: no just 2347162
xSezzyx: that's not too bad, than. ^_^

I <3 my brother. He's so cute! *cuddlecuddlecuddle*

Thatoneguy6834: get off me
Thatoneguy6834: ferret face
xSezzyx: I like ferrets.
xSezzyx: Maybe I should get one.
Thatoneguy6834: yea they are pretty cool
xSezzyx: They bite hard though.
Thatoneguy6834: finally you think of a pet that wont die in a day
xSezzyx: they could bite right through that middle piece of cartlidge in your nose.
Thatoneguy6834: but they wont
xSezzyx: Buttface!
xSezzyx: Yea, they do.
Thatoneguy6834: NO they dont
xSezzyx: They bite you until you scream then they don't bite you anymore.
xSezzyx: Duh.
Thatoneguy6834: and then they steal your car
xSezzyx: oo
xSezzyx: they do?
xSezzyx: maybe not mine.
Thatoneguy6834: yea
xSezzyx: what about sugar gliders?!
Thatoneguy6834: lol heather told me to tape her hands together and now she cant get out
xSezzyx: Hahahahahahahahaha!
xSezzyx: Stupid.
Thatoneguy6834: i died in dragon quest with my new guy
xSezzyx: QUIT WASTING TAPE STUPID! I TOLD YOU YESTERDAY NOT TO DO THAT!
xSezzyx: (show that to Heather)
xSezzyx: that blows.
Thatoneguy6834: she said to shut up or shell beat you up
Thatoneguy6834: i just pushed her down
Thatoneguy6834: her feet are taped too
xSezzyx: HAHAHAHAHAHA! QUIT WASTING TAPE OR I'LL EAT YOUR BABIES.
The chaos continues. Sometimes I want to kick my sister right where her katoonkas would be. Really. She's always painting her nails with White-Out or covering herself in tape. Than when Dad or I want either of those things there's either none left or she's hid it somewhere. It's like 'ARGH!'.

Sunday, May 12, 2002 | 09:31 p.m.
Now now, not every entry I make here can be cheery and fun.. but this one hopefully will. I'll drop the crappy explanation of how it got to be where it is.

I saw Spiderman. :sigh: Beautiful movie. I loved it. Sure, it had it's cornier moments, but it's still beautiful. The plot line was so sweet. I have a new respect for Peter Parker's everywhere. <3 sweet nerdy geeky guys. I'd rant on about the movie.. but I'll have to agree with Covin and say you should really go and see it. Cause you should. NOW!

Tomarrow should be interesting. And boring. At the same time! That's what happens when you're in school, I guess. The drop-out rate for our school district is at 21%, which is pretty high. Do I see this going on in school? Yes. See, you can't make money going to school. Sure, you could sell drugs, but school would even interfere with that. Damn school.. with it's education. Oh well. I <3 school.

Time to get a glass of milk and watch 'The Man Show.' Good night!

Sunday, May 12, 2002 | 01:06 p.m.
Bitchbitchbitch.

Everything is going wrong. I f-ing hate this. I just want to cuddle away. Dan wants to see me today, and he got the car, but it being mother's day I have to go see my grandma (something we always do), and Dan doesn't want to go over there. Can't say that I blame him much, cause they never seem to get along. But I don't think he knows that she doesn't know about.. things.. Lord knows if she did shit would hit the fan. I think that's why not even Dad has made an attempt at telling her.

These chubby little a-hole kids are piking each other with sticks. They look like the half-lings in Lord of The Rings.

My head hurts. I should have expected a headache with all the stuff that's been going on, but it still knocks the living shit out of me each time.

Ren left me an IM last night. It said something along the lines of how it reminded him of the 'Everytime you masturbate, God kills a kitten.' image. When it comes to my love of kittens and my love of Domo, I'm not sure which I'd choose. >.<

While I respect all of my online friends, there's one online element I cannot stand. This fad of cutsey digital animals owning stock. Neopets. Everytime I go to Dan's it's what his sister talks about, and it's the page I have to look at when Internet Explorer loads up. I'm going to start an 'I hate Neopets' ring. But knowing how obsessive they got over freaking FAN ART of their crappy characters, I'd probably get sued or something.

I'm hoping to get a little laundry done tonight. So I'll hopefully get to Dan's tonight to get some done. I dunno. Everything is making me mad and agitated right now. Heather spilled milk all over me, and I'm wearing my last pair of clean pants. I want to scream.

I'd blame this all on PMS.. and I probably will. Time to find something to choke.

Saturday, May 11, 2002 | 10:54 p.m.
Snazzy new layout. I was feeling cute. Shoot me. This should totally counteract the 'goth' look of the last layout. I got these great pictures that I may use for the next layout. ^_^